staring at this posting page so blank mindedly,

i just dont know what to say about this anymore.

behind his calm appearance, im actually very heated.

i really just want to blow up, but im scared ill just end up in tears.

why is it that i am treated the way i am?

you only come to me when you in need of help.

and when i approach, im given the cold shoulder.

err ok?

are we drifting apart?

i dont know, i dont want to think about it either, im scared to face the truth.

and if you're thinking, 'then dont think about it you stupid girl' then you've done some good research captain obvious,

i know that.

but its difficult to do so.

i dont want the distance between us to stretch,

i want to be close to you like shoes and laces, teeth and braces, andsentenceswithoutspaces.

=/

in a friendly type of way.

sighing off,

s.

tomorrow, i will study at unsw.

in which building will remain a secret.

the day after, i will study at unsw.

in which building will remain a secret.

the day after that, i will study at unsw till 3pm.

in which building will remain a secret.

friday, i will study at unsw, till whenever.

in which building, will remain a secret.

fuck my life.

day starts off well.

gradually gets better.

by midnight, everything gets fucked over.

why do i bother caring?

its not like they realise it.

what benefit is there for me helping someone out who doesn't listen?

what benefit is there for them if they leave things last minute?

ok i admit, im a last minute person too. but i give myself preparation time. when i know something is due, i dont leave it till the actual day and do it 1am on the day its due.

i know you might be reading this katie, i doubt it. you hardly ever do.

we can discuss this later, but i just need to get it out there for everyone else.

identify the problem, and find a solution.

"i will do more exercises" is not a solution.

thats something you need to do to find the solution.

you need to prioritise everything you study and when you study.

define : More exercises.

i really cant be fucked blogging anymore today. this entry already pisses me off. what ever happened to my happy blogs?

in need of a proper vacation?